So there's a few things I struggle with (okay "few" is an understatement, but for now I'll only force you to hear about a few).
I miss indulging in chocolate and sweets. And you know what? I hate that I still want to indulge. Now by "indulge" I mean seriously sitting down and eating. Not just a snack here and there. I still do that. The first year I started eating healthier I went almost a year with very little chocolate. Something snapped though and I've never made it back to that control. And honestly there are times I do INDULGE. A couple weekends back I made some yummy peanut butter chocolate chip cookies (the real recipe name is Soft Peanut Butter Chocolate Chunkers – doesn't that just sound yummy – here's the link http://www.whatmegansmaking.com/2012/07/soft-peanut-butter-chocolate-chunkers.html) and I'm sad to say that I ate more than I bothered to count. So we're talking probably more than 1 dozen. But mmmmm they were delicious!! Of course then I was mad at myself so I had to spend the next week trying to break myself of the sweets habit again. The only good thing is that it does remind me how hard bad habits are for people to break. Now I get that my sweet tooth isn't the worse habit in the world. But if it's so hard for me to give that up I can begin to understand the struggle people go through in trying to give up other addictions like smoking or drinking. I guess it's a good thing that I've developed this healthier attitude because when I do indulge a bit too much, I feel guilty and try to get back on the wagon. I'd hate to give up the benefits I've worked for over a little cookie (okay a seriously delicious cookie, but still…). And in dealing with my own "addiction" I have learned more patience and understanding for others who are trying to kick their habits.
Another issue is watching my 8-year-old daughter already looking at her body and thinking she's fat. Have I somehow contributed to this??? That's a question I constantly ask myself. When I started on my new and improved lifestyle I was trying to lose weight. However I honestly did need to lose it. I am continuously talking to my daughter and explaining that I'm exercising and eating healthy just for that reason… to be HEALTHY. My mom died from breast cancer. She was diagnosed when she was 41. You know what? I'm 41! But I'm hoping that by trying to keep fat cells at bay and staying physically fit that I'm discouraging cancer cells from ganging up on me. I'm also hoping to keep a healthy heart. I regularly explain this to her. But there's so many "pressures" from TV, movies, and even kids at school. Seriously?!! When did kids start worrying about their weight and body image at this early age?! These are the times I wish I had become a P.E. teacher. Not that I would be able to do much good, but it's nice to think that maybe I would have been a good influence. But instead I'll just work to keep the lines of communication open with my girl and hope she can help her friends. I've explained eating disorders to her and how dangerous they are. Maybe if we keep talking about it she'll know what to watch for if one of her friends ever has a problem.
And then there's the issue of keeping my family happy and not feeling neglected. There are times I know they get frustrated with my lifestyle change. The kids honestly do quite well with it. They don't love spinach but they do love salads! So it's an easy supper to just have everyone make their own salad. Our oldest loves smoothies with me on school mornings now (I'd share during the summer but he gets to sleep in!). And he's decided to get fit and stay fit. A lot of that's for playing sports. But I'm not complaining. Shoot – he's the one that beat me in the 5k last weekend. I totally did not see that one coming! Guess I better pick it up, huh?! But sometimes I worry that taking that hour each day to workout takes away from family time. I try and fit it in after the kids go to bed but then I'm usually done and ready for bed myself. And since my hubby's a night owl he wishes I'd stay up longer. This summer I'm trying to do my cardio at work either during lunch or right at the end of the day. It is nice having those nights free. My husband knows that I get pretty crabby if I don’t work out so he's really good about it. But I know there are times he gets tired of it too. And he doesn’t want to eat all the healthy food I eat. So I have to make sure there's a variety of food in the house or it looks like I only shop for my likes. Ugh!!! Do you have trouble if your family isn't as on-board with your lifestyle? I'd love to hear your tips on keeping it balanced.
Alright so I said I'd only list a few and when I was in school we learned that "a few" meant three. So I'll stop at three (for today anyway). On a positive note I totally rocked it on the elliptical today. Well I don't know if I rocked it, but I LOVE training on the elliptical. Someday my dream would be to have my own elliptical at home. Actually my dream would be to have my own real workout room J